break-up : letter to a sister!

(DISCLAIMER : The characters portrayed in this are fictitious . No identification with any real persons) 

Toulouse, France

22/03/2018

My Dear Loving Sister,

Hope this finds you well. I write this letter to express my views and opinions. Don't consider these opinions as my requests or suggestions or what so ever. Once again I state, these are just my opinions to give my perception!

Firstly, I respect your decisions in your life as an individual because that's your basic democratic right which law of land has provided to you. So, I respect it. I also agree that, the big decisions we take in our life are not taken in haste but by thorough process of our perception, conviction, thinking and understanding. When we are in good pages of our life everyone supports us, but when we are in difficult stage of life, generally many people will move away, but some will stand with us. I believe from the bottom of my heart that I belongs to the latter 'some' people, not only in your life but every one's life who are close to me.

As I said we take big decisions of our life with lot of conviction and perseverance, these decisions should be made after large degree of consensus with the people whom we believe are, well-wishers  of our life. Ultimately, we follow our heart but when we hear people's perception of things, we will know the new dimensions of it. This is very significant because, I believe that life is a practical experience of our perceived or convicted theory. As we say, theory and practical should go in tandem; not only in science but also in life! Of course, we listen to their ideas and see the new dimension of it and we may agree or disagree on it. In this context, people may play with emotions which are very sensitive, but we should only consider the truth rather than carrying away with emotions! When it comes to more personal issues, I agree that there would be some points which could not be discussed even with close ones, but in this case there should be a mutual consent of both the parties facing the issue, because I only believe that, 'Love' is true and genuine which does not have shades. There is no 'fake' love at all, instead of adding 'fake' to the word love, I don't like to name/consider it love at all and undercut the power of 'love'.

As a brother, I see you as a very emotional person from which I know you. Whenever I had a fight with a person on ideologies or anything, I see the positives and think of nice emotional bondage I had with that person, rather than the name of him/her in bad books of mine. This paves path for me to reconnect with that person, because as I said earlier life is nothing but experiences with people. When we think of the nice and beautiful time we had with the person by recollecting the memories and fantasies we thought of, our brain will be freed from unnecessary stuff and definitely we shall be relived psychologically. I think this is the first and foremost thing one should do in the time of crisis.

When it comes to relationships, the first thing people say to me is, neither you had an experience of being in relation in the past nor now and you talk about it. I agree I neither had it in past nor now, but the fact is, I am in relationship with 'myself' from the time my cognitive mind started thinking. So with that experience I speak today. Being committed in a relation is itself a genuine task with lot of emotions, convictions, perceptions and of course love. When we are in this genuine feeling, we arrive at many ideological, behavioral, attitude differences. But the super power of this genuine feeling (I stress 'genuine') is to overcome these differences. This is the sole reason I believe, why this emotion of love still exists in air. Many people becomes prey of these differences as they don't see the super power of this emotional feeling because of many reasons which include impatience, insecurity and I believe in a strong reason that, they don't believe in the 'emotion of love' and are not eligible for this feeling. This is very unfortunate in some terms.

I hear people complaining that love is full of sacrifices and we have to forgo a lot to accept others and I am the only one doing this, he/she does not even care to do a small thing for me . I laugh internally when I hear this. Because, in spiritual sense, our journey is to a place where the term 'I' (here, not only refers to ego) drops down, as the soul of ours and soul of God unites and there is no existence of other thing to advertise us as 'I'. Similarly, I see love as an emotion where two souls meet into one and there is nothing as of 'I', because, 'I' drops down. When there is no 'I', there is no point of sacrifice for someone. To reiterate, when there is no 'I' and 'You', where is the logic of sacrifice?!

Finally, the term 'break-up', I get laugh when people use this term. When we are in genuine emotional connection with a person,  we are already united as one soul and I never heard of a break-up of one soul into two. Even I think a costlier endothermic fission reaction also cannot make this (on a lighter note!) 😉. According to me, where ever there exists this genuine emotional bondage, there, the word break-up does not exists! If anyone claims that he/she is in this genuine emotional bond, they are not authorized to use this word; as that emotion and this word cannot exist together! So, why this word exists?! I only see this as an excuse to find a better person in terms of career, physical, financial, societal norms. These are just my views on the society, this may not directly imply on you, but I am just putting my perception of life in words for your benefit. See the positive side of life, the emotions you shared, the good time you spent together, the fun you had being one etc. Everyone will have gray shades in his/her life. As I said, the word sacrifice does not exist in same place where this emotional bond exists; take the gray shades of the person as an experience to convey him/her, so that gray shades does not turn black. This is one of the good way to solve the issues if we have any.

I agree that basing on the societal, family extensions we are involved, we cannot show the utmost purity what the emotion of love expects/requires. If the differences are large enough and the two souls (not 'one') want to move away, I think the mutual consent is extremely important. Moving away without mutual consent is very illegitimate in my opinion and one who does this, are not only, being not genuine to themselves but also to the pureness of that emotion. From spiritual sense, I see 'break-up' as a ethical divorce and 'divorce' as a divorce abide by law of land. So, mutual consent is significant as emotions are involved in the context.

Finally, as I said earlier, think about the good times you spent together, fun you had, emotions you carried, the fantasies you thought of as a couple and many more good thoughts. These positive things will drive us with more energy and passion towards the ethically right things in our life. Hope you will also be driven to ethical genuine side of your life very soon! I wish and pray for your unity! 

Best wishes and may God bless you!

Your loving brother

the last look . . . ! (jabbed from some real lyf incidents!)

A newly nuptial juvenile couple entered the airport at 11pm ….as the date was not changed, that day; it was the day of their marriage…. Albeit their first night, they were intended to visit the airport as the groom should leave for U.S.A on an urgent meeting ……As they entered the departure terminal, there was a sense of orgasm in their eyes, as they booked two tickets in alacrity and excited to see whether their tickets got confirmed……

But unfortunately only one ticket got confirmed….and so groom was leaving for U.S.A…….the sense of orgasm in the eyes of bride turned to a sense of moisture on hearing the news…….meanwhile groom held her hand tightly and said “Shall return back in two days…..I assure you!”………

She rearranged her eyes back to usual position and held a smile on her face, intended to make her better half feel at ease in voyage and not to upset him at this ‘reach your zenith’ situation…..

She wished “Bon-voyage” and hugged him tightly …..At this position there both eyes were in a straight line of sight each looking into others deeply….!....they maintained solid silence in between and suddenly the bride’s eyes turned with moisture…..!!!....the bride was unable to leave him…!

An announcement by the British Airways disturbed them…..the announcement called for the check-in of their passengers at the counter….Now the groom told her not to fear and he would return in two odd days and made eye contact with her to confirm what he said and took his baggage and moved towards counter without losing the eye contact with the bride for the maximum distance possible…!

He completed the process of check-in and again arrived at the departure terminal near his wife before entering the security check….as once he enters security check he cannot return back… 

He came back for the last look of his wife before departure…..this last look would be very thrilling or exhilarating or breathtaking or awe-inspiring…..whatever you call it as!….it would be like ‘give up anything item for the required’………He held her face in his hands and again made an eye contact to make her confident about his return and kissed her……

After the above action, he left for security check and while turning a 90degree turn where from he would have no clue of his wife ….again saw for the last look which again would be an infinite dollar gift…!!!

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A brother and his sister who are very close to each other and they are like ‘how the theory of relativity is significant to Einstein in his observation!’….they was that much dependent on each other for their either survival……

But to their fortunate of unfortunate, sister got selected in a campus placement and need to go to Pune for the job required……it was a condition of neutrality to both of them as the happiness of getting job is cancelled with going away from each other….but to say, they were in a state of negativity rather than neutral as their going away from each otherness was more than getting job….!

But at last, as one cannot move against the will of nature, she decided to go to Pune hoping an early transfer to their home place….brother went along with his sister to the railway station to sendoff  her ….As the train was on time that day (they thought usually Indian railway would be late!!! …but they were unfortunate in this too!)……she boarded on to the train and her brother told her all the necessary things every brother would tell his sister!

As the train whistled the last signal noting the departure of it….all was ready for the last look of their beloved ones…..the last look which would be very precious and very pure would impend a sense of pleasure and happiness in the minds of individual …….I personally would give away anything for that LAST LOOK…!!!

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A boy and a girl who are classmates…..rather than to say classmates’, ‘gung ho’ classmates will make it profound……albeit of their two years of education in the same class, they did not talk to each other but each was well known to other ……..the boy who always wanted to talk with her but never dared to do so……he always liked her smile and he always wants to see it on her face…!

In the two completed years of instruction, that girl always held the merit of excellence and always she was followed by that guy……Although he tries to jab that merit from her but he feels that the smile on her face, when she gets merit of excellence feels him better than any other else………..

Although he is one of the meritorious student of the class, he would come to college just because to see her and for that the last look in the evening……that girl comes to college in her BMW driven by herself and return to home along with her friends in car…….

That premier car was tinted all around but it was not done at the driver’s glass……it was like a coincidence or God’s help to this guy (may be too superstitious …!!!)….so that, that guy can get the last look of the girl everyday in the evening……..that last look which would be very loved, very valued, very worthy (whatever you call!)….he would get immense pleasure of that last look….

Rather than talking to her, he feels better of getting the last look of her in her non-tinted car….!!!....He completed his two years of education in the same manner …….and I could definitely say that he would complete the other years of education in the similar demeanor……but I donno when this stupid (not in its actual meaning!) guy will get his merit of excellence from that girl….. :P 

a travel from rogue to rogue^2......

Akshay….Akshay….Akshay…

As this name resonates, the pumping of heart, of gals reaches extreme….and of boys; their heart just pumps itself out for this guy……

On a fine afternoon, a guy came running to a class and made a skid at the door to give a negative acceleration……

“ffff…ffff…ffff….” these have nothing in relation with ‘F’ words but they are breathing notes of that guy!

“Akshay…!” …..as this name was pronounced from his mouth….all gals surrounded him, as they went to beat him!!!…He was pretty confused and a music note was clear to him from those surrounding gals…..which was ‘what happened to Akshay?’….

“Some guys are trying to jab Akshay under their boots in the ground…..”

“ohhhh..nooo!” they all sounded in unison and ran towards ground.

As they were going near to the ground, they saw Akshay from the threshold of vision and started shouting for his rescue……

They saw a boot, which was a half foot away from Akshay’s face being acted upon by a force in the direction of negative acceleration due to gravity…….that force was acted upon by a guy, who is the closest to Akshay and intended to visit the college for his friend’s rescue……

After the action had completed…there was a buzz of whisper among the equals of Akshay about the guy who rescued……

As soon as the buzz started, the intelligent boy Akshay noticed the murmur and answered the buzz by introducing that guy as “Akhil…a friend of ours…..”

“Ours….???” All noted in unison……

“yes ours indeed……”

“New admission….?”

“No….one of our old pals…..”

Akhil….though his name starts with 1st letter, he is last in his class as per the marks record…..he often attend the class work……rather than often it would be better to say never…….  

Akhil ….a good impish guy…..seems to be quite opposite words but I think these words describe him better than other….!

This guy has no belief in studying….albeit he passed his +2 he has no idea what Newton’s laws are……..

His parents are very ambitious to see him as a good technical guy……so as to fulfill their ambitions they joined him into one of the premier technical institutions overcoming the hurdles in-between…..

 We can make a horse to go near a pond but we cannot make it to drink water …..The same goes with this guy in the angle of his parents………

At least, to make the horse thirst after reaching the pond, they made Akshay, one of the intelligent and smart guy as his friend so that he could learn at least an infinitesimal that of Akshay’s……

Akhil was considered as rouge, brat etc etc (all synonyms included) by all clan of his and also his neighbors….now-a-days in this society, who doesn’t read and study are considered the same without knowing their inner talent…..

Akhil is good but to say he is a bit mischief too…….

When, he first took some part of oxygen from this atmosphere, he pumped off on the doctor’s face, when the doctor was checking his gender…!!!

Starting from, when he has got no senses to around 12th year he was the same kind doing a lot of mischief in his home and school and were ever he goes mischief followed him as his shadow…!!!

He was very dearest to his parents as he was their only child and he was very well sophisticated by them……he would get whatever he wants as the word comes from his mouth….

From the childhood to his sophomore of graduation he was same at his character and a good thing about him is that he shows utmost respect to his opposite gender….

Albeit he does a lot of monkey business, he never does it with gals…..he will always be away from them (jus as a respect from his monkey things!!!)…..

There is a totally opposite (in gender too!) character in the same class ….Her name is Akshara…..

That lonely, pretty girl who sits in the first bench always…the one who always eats alone and never goes out with anyone..….her face always hidden in her books….

She’s a freak and library is her favorite place in the world…..and I think her only orgasms till date are those from the smell of her precious books! I bet she fantasizes about them at nights!!!

Apart from this side of her the other side is very admiring…..although a freak of books, she finds some time in the mean to talk with her friends ……she has an edge on some of them over other and those some, who talks about academics and study related things (freakiness never endup yarrr :P )…..

She used to be very regular to classes and her notes are considered as Gitaby all……During weekends her home seems to be a tutorial covering up all the week’s syllabus……she used to be very patient and very energetic explaining all the content to her fellows……and during exams there is a superstition that, on the day before exam whole class turns up at her home for the last page of her book and for last precious important words of her….!!!

On a fine afternoon, while both Akshay and Akhil were standing at a familiar tree in their college….a girl in pink Anarkali Salwaar-kammez came to them and asked Akshay whether he had updated the last assignment…..

“Out and out..” Akshay answered.

“Oh….fine thankyou” She said and went away.

On seeing that girl, Akhil’s heart throbbed which was a  very unusual action…….then suddenly without any delay he said “Who is that girl Akshay?”

“Oh …don’t you no?….she is Akshara….studious girl and topper of our batch……”

“Oh …is it sooo..?!”

On the very next day Akhil came to class and all his fellows looked him as a stranger and indeed Akshara too.

Over a fortnight he studied all (not in its actual meaning :P) and knew  about Akshara…….

Although he was not inspired by any stories the background of this girl admired him a lotttt….!!!

After listening about her and seeing her, he was lit up by an idea not only to talk to her but also to study……

As he had done some research about her, he knew that he had only chance to talk about the subject with her……..

A week later he went straight up to her and told her about him and his history and asked her to help him to study………the very next day she enquired Akshay about Akhil, and the story repeats there too……

As she enjoys helping hands to her fellowmen…..she accepts to help him to get through…….!

It’s very fortunate for Akhil, as Akshara is very immediate neighbor to him……Akshay had taken Akshara to Akhil’s home and told his parents that this girl is topper of his class and now she accepts to take responsibility of Akhil to get him through……..

There was a sense of moisture in Akhil’s parents eyes on hearing those words and thanked Akshara for taking their boy as her boy….!!!

From the very next day the schedule was planned by Akshara for Akhil as he should start from the beginning …..Continuous tutorials were conducted at her house by these two people and in a month Akhil had been seriously preparing himself for the semester exams……

These two people studied a lot round the clock and more than him she worked hard to get him through the exams……she used to conduct tests for him …..She was like a teacher to him, but more than that she was like a best friend to him……

From that day any work they do….they both do in………!

After the first semester results, topper remains topper and this guy Akhil got through the exams……As the results were out, the joy of this guy has reached maximum and no one is capable, to stop this guy……

As he came in the sight of Akshara……he was over whelmed…..and there was a sense of moisture in his eyes which resembled a sense of thanks to her…..but the joy and pleasure in her eyes was just infinite……..

Later, the intensity of studying showed, it was like a competition going on in-between these two…..albeit a guru and a student…..two best friends……and now too good competitors’…….!!!

 In spite of being competitors, they never did their work alone and now toothey do in both…!!!

Akhil’s parents are too happy about their ward….his complexity now in reading and his development throughout the span of six months …..This was just because of one character Akshara…….

During the second semester exams……I think their bathing and eating time itself is their sleeping time…….sooo vigorously they both studied for exams……it is not an astonishing point to note about Akshara but about Akhil this point is very worthy to note……

As the results of second sem were out…..Akshara started to look the name in the marks list (not her name…..her name would obviously at the top!) ….she started to see A..k..h..i..l’s name from the bottom of the chart but she did not find it until she reached 5th position……then a thought went on her mind, to see the flunked list and there she searched from top but fortunately she did not find in that list too……!!!

Then again she searched the actual list from that 5th position towards her name and she was amazed, stunned, shocked to see Akhil’s name just below her name and they both were given equal rank as they both got equal marks…..!!!

“Arey baap!……this guy had become rogue^2 from rogue yarrr….!!!”

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