Monday, January 28, 2019

Ethical vs Practical : "Rejection/break-up is also an emotion as Love, respect it!" (Part 4/5)

(DISCLAIMER : The story, all names, characters, and incidents portrayed in this story are fictitious. No identification with actual persons (living or deceased), places  is intended or should be inferred)

Missed Episode - 3 ?! Don't worry, I'll take you there, Episode 3 

"Albeit I love you, I support your love!" she texts with the same love and passion for him!
"I don't know how to react to this but I thank you very much for your words!" Aryan replies.

She hopes to get at least one neuron space in his heart and falls asleep! 

Aayushi sprinkles water on Alankrita to wake her up with adrenaline rush, to check her dress as she is going on a date!

Alankrita, instead wakes up in a calm fashion and suggests minute changes to her to look more exquisite and falls asleep.

She hears a sound of text notification in her dream, she checks her mobile in reality and realizes that the sound was not in her dream but in reality!

"Hey, gm! Can you come to our meeting place @12 noon, something important!" Aryan texts her.

"Okay! sure, I will be there!" she texts back.

Aryan waits for her in the lobby holding a bag which had a wedding invitation in it!

Alankrita naturally gets into her brightest colors to meet her love, but she doesn't know the fact, what Aryan has in his pocket for her!

They occupy a table in the corner to get kissed by the Sun!

Alankrita breaks the silence, "What is that something important?"

"I am here to let you know, before it let's grab a drink" "Excuse me, two coffee please!"

"How is your friend and her life?" Aryan starts off with a smooth conversation to soothe her before bombing her with the invitation.

"She is good and she went on a date ;)"

"Nice to hear!"

"Can you tell me please?" she asks again!

"You are such a diabetic girl ЁЯШЬ" 

He takes the wedding invitation from his bag and hand it over to her. 

She was completely taken by surprise! Shocked to see the invitation in her hands! Almost sense of moisture in her eyes! She doesn't want to see the invitation, but unconsciously pulled it and saw the picture of the bride, who is the girlfriend of Aryan. She shuts the invitation back into the pouch with tears rolling down her cheeks!

"Hey, don't cry please!" Aryan tries to comfort her!

She gets up plants a kiss on his forehead and leaves the place running with tears!

Aayushi returns home and surprised to see that Alankrita did not return home yet,  instead she found a stick note which said, "I am out of mood, I shall be back some time late night"

Aayushi felt something fishy and called Aryan to find anything had happened between them and also to find her whereabouts. "She left crying but I exactly don't know where she is now, I shall also inquire with our mutual friends, let me know if you find her!"

Aayushi tries out in many ways but all results in vain, she gets tired and falls asleep hoping that Alankrita would come home sometime late night as she wrote!

Alankrita comes home at dawn holding the same invitation. She founds Aayushi in the costume she suggested in the early morning, smiles at her and hits the bed with tears!

In the early mornings of a sunny day, Aayushi had a huge curve on her face seeing her best friend back in her bed. But her curve did not last long as she found Alankrita's face turn red with tears and agony resembling that she had a sad day!

She checks the wedding invitation card beside Alankrita's bed and checks it!

Alankrita gets up as the Sun hits the head from the top!

"Congratulations! I am so happy and excited as your path has been cleared!" Aayushi wishes Alankrita in a louder voice with excitement!

"What are you talking about?" Alankrita asks with bewilderment.

"I am talking about Aryan as I saw the invitation!"

"Yeah, they are getting married!"

"Aren't you excited about the marriage"

"WTF! Are you in your senses?! Why should I be excited when the person I love is getting married to another ?!" 

"WTH!"

"Don't play with me now, am already tired and you can see it"

"No! I am not playing with you Alankrita! Did you actually check the invitation?"

"Yes, I checked it partly"

"OMG! Check it fully, you diabetic girl!"

"What do you mean by diabetic girl ?! He also said the same to me yesterday! Wait, let me check the card!"

As she opens the card fully, she was astonished to see a picture of another man as bridegroom instead of Aryan! She looses her balance and hits the bed with joy, tears rolling down her face, but this time with joy!

"What a surprise is it !!!" She looks at Aayushi with a happy face.

"Yes, and this girl spoiled her mood and lost her day in life doing nothing seeing one side of coin!"

"No! I saw the picture of her on the card yesterday and expected that it would be Aryan on other side and my mind is not ready enough to see that picture, so I never saw it!"

"So, never take decisions with half knowledge" Aayushi teaches important philosophical lines to the philosopher herself!

"Okay! Agree philosopher! But I am actually sad for him"

"Is it?! Now say the truth my dear girl" Aayushi teases her!

"I am half sad and half happy, sad as he didn't get his love and happy as he is not getting married to that girl!"

"So, now girly emotions coming up!" ЁЯШЙ 

"Shut up!"

Alankrita grabs her mobile and start typing a text to Aryan, "Hey Aryan, I am sorry, I didn't see the card completely yesterday! I am sorry for you, can we meet today evening @5 ?"

"Sure!" reply pops up on her mobile!

Alankrita was very sad a few moments ago and now she is the most happy person living on Earth. This is the magic of Love! This is the magic of connection between humans! This is the magic of relation! This is the magic of emotions! This is the magic of almighty!

She reaches at the meeting point and sees Aryan at the table. She makes a sad face seeing Aryan as a disappointment of his love, although she is full of the joys of spring inside!

"I am so sorry Aryan! I never thought that this could ever happen to you!" "As I always said, albeit I love you, I support your love! I stand by this even now! And I really don't know how to help you at this point of time" Alankrita tries to soothe Aryan!

"It's just my fate!" Aryan says with wet eyes. Its indeed very difficult to see a boy crying and its even more difficult to soothe him!

Alankrita comes close to Aryan, gets his head onto her shoulder and tries to soothe him in a girly way!

Aryan wipes of his tears and gets back to his senses quickly. Boys can hold the emotions pretty well and can control them! Cheers to all of them! 

"Can I know how this had happened?" Alankrita asks him to show her utmost concern for him!

"We were together emotionally until last few months, and then suddenly she started behaving as an emotionally detached person!"

"Oh I see... ", its difficult for a anyone to show pseudo emotions.
"I asked her why she was behaving this way, then she said that she don't feel the emotions for me the same way she felt at starting. She says that she can't continue this relation without emotion and she wants to breakup!"

"I am really very sorry for you both!"

"Then she stopped talking to me and acted very abnormal with me, this had hurt me so much!" 

"I understand your pain Aryan, don't worry!" She consoles him being happy inside!

Although boys are emotionally strong, they are uncontrollable when it comes to the emotion of Love. Aryan breaks down again in front of Alankrita!

"I let your pain completely fade-out with your tears!" "But Aryan do you love her now too and do you believe in emotions?" Alankrita asks in a soft tone!

"Yes of course! I love her ever and I believe in emotions!" Aryan confesses.

"Aryan, you are emotionally connected with her and she was also connected with you for certain point of time. But I don't know the reasons behind it, she didn't feel the emotions for you later and she asked for a breakup - which is also an emotion. If your love is an emotion, then her breakup is also an emotion! If you are a genuine lover you should respect her emotion of breakup. If you don't respect her emotion of breakup, then you don't have the genuine respect for emotions of others! This seems to be a logical way of thinking but this is fact!"

"I understand your point, but do you see its practical resemblance ?"

"Yes of course! Its practical too!"

"I know its difficult to argue with you!" 

"Not so difficult as your research!" she winks at him.

"I had helped her so much in her work and we even planned to do it together, but all in vain now!"

"Now, don't get back to her again, you will feel disappointed"

I would like to add one thing Aryan, "Rejection/break-up is also an emotion as Love, respect it!"

Thursday, August 9, 2018

Ethical vs Practical : "Albeit I love you, I support your love" (Part 3/5)


(DISCLAIMER : The story, all names, characters, and incidents portrayed in this story are fictitious. No identification with actual persons (living or deceased), places  is intended or should be inferred)

Missed Episode - 2 ?! Don't worry, I'll take you there, Episode 2

Aayushi reads the letter written by Alankrita to Aryan, places it on the same table at exact position thinking that "Hope and desire kills intelligence". But somewhere in her mind she thinks that Alankrita is genuine in her feelings and sense.

Alankrita finishes meeting with the supervisor, returns to her room after a tiresome day and quickly falls asleep in her bed.
On the next day, Alankrita sends a text to Aryan, "Hey Aryan! This is Alankrita, if you don't have my contact! If you are free, shall we meet this weekend?"
Her hands start shaking after she clicks the send button as she was worried about how Aryan reacts to her text.
"Hey Alankrita! How are you? Yes, we can catch up this weekend!", a texts pops up on her mobile.
"I am fine! How are you doing? Shall we meet at the public garden?", she replied.
"I am fine too, thank you! Yup, public garden is fine! See you soon! :)", he texts back.
Alankrita feels happy after a short conversation with her love. Some people gives significance to economical status ,caste, religion etc. when then want to unite two souls, but there is much happiness and pleasure in small things than the giant complex things. Talking with the person you love and spending some time with him/her is a love orgasm
She waits for the weekend to meet Aryan and express her love in form of long letter she wrote for him. She visits costume store to get her into the brightest colors and visits beauty clinic to make the final adjustments to her face.
The big Sunday has arrived. She checks her dress with Aayushi, grabs the letter and leaves her room on time to meet her love.
Alankrita had a big smile on her face as she saw Aryan after long time, the same reciprocated by Aryan.
After meet and greet, Aryan came directly to the point of reason for meeting. Alankrita was taken aback by the urgency of Aryan.
She holds an eye to eye contact for few seconds, takes the letter and handed it over to Aryan with a ray of hope in her eyes. 
Aryan sits on a nearby bench and starts off to read the letter.
Her heart starts to beat faster than the speed of light. She looks tensed.
He finishes reading the letter. She was eager to know his reaction but Aryan maintained a steady face without much emotions.
Aryan gets up with the letter and tears it off in front of her face and leaves her without uttering a single word.
Alankrita was startled with the reaction and she was in complete shock with rolling tears down her cheeks.
"Alankrita ... Alankrita ... ", she hears someone calling her name while Bhagavad Gita shlokas playing in the background. 
She wakes up from her bed shouting "Aryan ... Aryan". "Are you ok?", Aayushi asks her shaking her hand to bring her to senses.
Alankrita comes to the senses realizing that it was a dream! "Thank God! It was the deadliest dream! Yes! I am fine now!", she replied to Aayushi.
Alankrita notices that Aayushi is playing a shloka from 'Gita' in loop, which she wrote in letter to Aryan. She smelled something fishy about this and realizes that Aayushi got to know about the letter.
"Are you convinced yet with my feelings for him in the letter?", Alankrita asks Aayushi. Aayushi puts an innocent face acting as if she did not understand what Alankrita is talking about.
"I know that you knew about the letter I wrote to Aryan", Alankrita confirms Aayushi.
"I am very sorry to read your personal letter Alankrita, I did not mean to read it but the papers blown off due to wind and I gathered them and the curiosity of the girly design on them made me to check them! I am sorry!", Aayushi apologizes Alankrita.
"Hey, chill! No problems! You are my best friend and you have every right to read it!" Alankrita pushes Aayushi into her comfort zone to ask her suggestion on when she should give it to Aryan.
"So, when are you planning to propose him with the letter?"
"I was about to ask your suggestion exactly on this point!" Alankrita says to Aayushi.
"Call him to ask whether he is free to meet this weekend at coffee shop" Aayushi suggests her.
She calls Aryan and Aryan confirms his appointment with her on Sunday.
"Let's go to Zara to pick up a nice outfit for you!" Aayushi asks her.
Alankrita blushes out for the encouragement from her friend.
All set for Sunday to meet Aryan at coffee shop as planned before.
Alankrita wears out a shinning black one piece she bought in Zara and Aayushi touches up her face to make her look pretty.
She leaves for coffee shop well before the time, as she was too excited to meet Aryan and propose him with the letter.
The two eyes meet after long time followed by a mandatory hug! After the meet and greet, Aryan ordered two cups of Cappuccino as he knew that Alankrita likes it.
As time progressed they both shared laughter and she had a huge curve on her face after long time. 
She was excited to propose him one more time with the letter. Her heart started to beat faster and faster as she thought to propose him. Her hands began to tremble as she takes out the letter from her bag.
"Few lines for you... ", she handed over the letter to him.
She kept checking his reactions and emotions on his face while reading the letter, but he kept his cool throughout the read.
"I love you so much!" she said to him with all the love in her eyes and heart.
"Thank you for pouring down such high emotions in the letter. I liked it!" he said to her.
"It's my pleasure Aryan!" she says.
"But I need to tell you one important thing that happened in my life after we last met", she said to her.
"Oh! What is it about?!"
"During my post graduation, I liked a girl who is a junior to me in my university. She is pretty, innocent and intelligent. She shares same interest as mine professionally. We got in touch two years ago. We both like each other to the core", he says to her.
Alankrita was completely devastated after hearing about another girl in Aryan's life. Tears were rolling down her eyes. She was completely speechless and gathered all her energy to get up from her chair and leave the shop.
"Alankrita ... please listen to me ... Alankrita", Aryan shouted as he leaves. She did not turn back as she was not prepared to hear such things.
"I am sorry! You are so special to me. But I have feelings for another girl. I am very sorry for you! You would get a nice guy for you!", a texts pops up on her mobile the next day.
"It's ok!" she replies back.
"I hope you are mature enough to understand me!"
"ok!" she texts.
Alankrita could not stop tears from her eyes after that day. Aayushi tried to console her but she left after few tries, as she wants her to cry out to the fullest, to let the sorrow levels drop down.
"Let's go to the park" Aayushi says to Alankrita.
"No! I don't want to come anywhere!"
"Please Alankrita, don't be foolish now. It's your life, don't waste it."
Aayushi finally convinces her to go to park. 
Aayushi tried to console and convince her in every angle possible to forget him. But Alankrita is very stubborn in her feelings for him. She says that she loves him and doesn't expect anything in return from him. She says her love is unconditional. She reiterates the shloka which she wrote to him. She says that she is here only to love him forever without expecting the same love from him. She wants him to be happy and that itself makes her happy. Even a small text from him makes her day, she loved him that core! 
Alankrita hoped that Aryan would be her soul mate, but he loves other girl. She lives with a hope that she would get at least some place in her heart some day! She doesn't expects it but she hopes!
"Hey! I told you about the junior girl, right?! I am facing some trouble to make the things fall in right place!" a notification pops on her mobile!
"Yes, you told me that day in coffee shop! May I know about the trouble, if you don't mind!" she texts back.
"Yes, I will tell you about it later as I am in my lab right now!" he replies.
"It's ok!"
"Albeit I love you, I support your love!" she texts with the same love and passion for him!

Interesting?!!! Continue to Episode 4

Saturday, April 14, 2018

Ethical vs Practical : She writes a letter ; "Hope Kills Intelligence" (Part 2/5)

(DISCLAIMER : The story, all names, characters, and incidents portrayed in this story are fictitious. No identification with actual persons (living or deceased), places  is intended or should be inferred)

Missed Episode 1 ?!! Don't worry, I'll take you there, Episode 1

"You are not the Alankrita we know from the years!", all of her friends sounded in unison.

Alankrita falls asleep as she was tired of crying!

"Hello! How are you doing?", a text pops up on the screen of Alankrita's mobile.

Its very common to snooze an alarm in the morning, but a tone of notification can make you awake , so, respect the early morning texts you receive! ЁЯШЙ

Alankrita do fits to this stereotypical notification fever! She woke up and startled to see a text from an unkown number.

She searched in the directory but could not find any clues! Out of the curiosity, she replied, "Hello! I am fine! Who is this?", expecting that this would be Aryan, trying to play with her!

She fell asleep again dreaming of him! As she woke up during breakfast time, she got a reply, "I am the one who guided you to bring the food to the donors during the blood donation camp in the university! Did you forget me?"

"No! I remember you! But I did not hear from you from that moment!", she texted back.

"I was busy getting around the things to build my hospital!", he texted!

"Oh! Are you a doctor?"

"Yes, Of course! I visited your university during blood donation camp!"

"Oh cool! "

"Would you like to have a cup of coffee in the evening?"

"Yes, sure!" she texts back.

They both had met in a coffee cafe! Alankrita felt refreshed after sharing some refreshing time right after the hot discussion last night! But, Alankrita feels something fishy during the meeting! She inferred that the guy is trying to move in close calls of her! He is trying to impress her in all motives! Alankrita does not want to get more troubles into her life!

The guy texted Alankrita for a week and they both shared a normal chat. On a weekend, the guy asked Alankrita to come out for a movie with him! Alankrita thought that, this is going to lead to a place, where she doesn't want to land!

As expected, the guy proposed Alankrita with beautiful roses near her hostel! Her friends saw this scene from a distance and hoped that their friend would accept the proposal.

But to their shock, Alankrita in a matured way denies the proposal explaining him, why she cannot love him back. She explains him that, she respects him a lot for all the things he had done to her. She explains about her commitments and her ideology of life and love! After listening to her, the guy admired her a lot for the way she cared to explain the things to him.

Although, it's impossible to forget someone we love, the guy says that he admires her for she being she and leaves the place with moisture in his eyes!

We love our parents and siblings and they love and care for us, because, we are a part of a family and it has some responsibilities and connections! We care and share with our friends, because, friends are also a vital part of our life! 

If a third person (although a friend before) loves us and admires us, its a great honor to us for being in such great spirits in his/her mind. Why does that third person, mind to take some of his/her precious time to think of us?! It's a great privilege of being loved by someone! We have to show our reverence to it, at least by caring to explain to him/her, the reasons for less chances of possibilities of sharing our life with him/her. This is not the same as convincing him/her! The point is to respect the feelings!

Alankrita behaved with the similar ideology towards the guy who proposed her! 

"I saw some beautiful red roses today! ", Aayushi winked at Alankrita.

"What? Why are you randomly talking about res roses now?", Alankrita said in a state of confusion.

"I am not talking anything with uncertainty, my filter had some observations of red roses today!", Aayushi replied with a love gesture with her hands.

"Stop it! I understood that you saw it! And I hope that you saw it till the end"

"Yes, but, why Alankrita, why are you doing like this?! Come out of Aryan, be practical!", Aayushi confronted. 

"We already had a talk about this in the past and I stand by the same even now!", Alankrita said with a firm voice!

After few months, Alankrita has decided to write a letter to Aryan. Although its conventional to write a letter of life, she believed that its the best way to express oneself.

She tries to pen down her feelings with all senses.

Alankrita writes ...

Dear Me,
рдХрд░्рдордг्рдпेрд╡ाрдзिрдХाрд░рд╕्рддे рдоा рдлрд▓ेрд╖ु рдХрджाрдЪрди। 
рдоा рдХрд░्рдордлрд▓рд╣ेрддुрд░्рднूрд░्рдоा рддे рд╕рдЩ्рдЧोрд╜рд╕्рдд्рд╡рдХрд░्рдордгि॥

As you know the fact that I am totally inspired from the 'book of humans', The Bhagavd Gita, so I start this letter with the 'shloka' I esteem, admire and gets inspiration from. I believe that you definitely know the meaning of the above 'shloka', I shall talk about it later.

Firstly, I request you to read this letter as if I am holding your arms and gazing into your sharp eyes and uttering each (and each) and each of every word of it with you! I wish doing this! Otherwise it's a just of piece of paper with some words scribbled on it. May be its an old tradition to express, I choose this medium to express because I respect it. 

I believe that life is full of new experiences with people. Some may be good and other bad. We learn from bad experiences and we cherish our good experiences for life time and even for the future life. On a fine day, I had a beautiful and wonderful experience to meet you in person and talk to you. 

We both had shared some pleasant time each other on chats and calls. Though we met rarely, I share a strong bond with your soul. I believe I met you for a reason. Otherwise, I would have missed a chance of meeting a beautiful and wonderful guy like you! You are the most beautiful thing that happened to me in my life. I cherish it every day of my life.

The best part of you is, you were there with me in my difficult times. When we are feeling low, a person who stands by our side (though they does not help to reach our goal) and talks to us, is most significant and you did that job to me! I never thanked you for that, now I take some space to thank you from the bottom of my heart for that!

More than anything, I like your attitude. The way you used to talk to me on the call, I cherished each and every word. The way you scold me, the way you fooled me some times, the way you take care of me by your texts, each and every thing! I admire those sharp eyes, your eternal smile and love, and the symphony in your voice. I want to see you smile with eyes full of glory ever ever ever!

To explain, what I like in you is very difficult task, because it tends to infinity and explaining infinity is one of the foolish things to do! I like and admire each and everything in you! I believe it's not just a sentence to say, but the fact of my soul. I can't say the reasons for the soul connection. 

After I proposed, you stopped talking to me! This was more hurting to me than the way you turned down the proposal. Because I did not expect this! 

May be time elapsed much, but I am the same what I was the first day. I did not move an inch and I would not, because you are my soul and I do not want to move away from my soul, and if I do so, there is no 'me'. 

It would be an overstatement to you, if I say that I think of you every day. but as of me, I do think of you every day. I pray to God for your health and prosperity every day during my prayers.

Aryan, you mean a lot to me! You are very special to me. I like to spend each and every moment with you sharing the joy, laughter, pain and the troubles. 

I love you to the moon and back. not only to the moon and back but also to the infinite light years into the universe and back! I love you! 

Now, I wanted to speak about the 'shloka' I started off with. As a avid follower of Gita, I stand by that 'shloka'. It says, we have right to our duty (or action) and not the results of it. Let the fruit of action not alone be the motive for acting and let there not be any attachment for inaction. There is a thin line between expectation and hope. One who understands this, can live thy life happily. I don't expect anything in return but I hope that the things happen! I am very sincere and genuine in my love for you! There may be deviations to me in terms of proposals from other sides, I stand still for my love until now and forever! I hope that you understand my feelings and emotions which are very genuine of its kind towards you! I love you then, now and forever!

My emotions are rising as I write this, I am falling short of breath and words, my hands are shaking to write. My heart is beating faster and faster... I suppose most of us are lonely in this big world but we must tremendously fall in love to find it out! You are my life - my very life. I express my immortal, my eternal love for you! I shall live and cherish in your happiness my love.

I don’t know how to tell you just how much I miss you. I love you till my heart could burst. All I love, all I want, all I need is you – forever. I want to just be where you are and be just what you want me to be. How much I write, no written words can adequately express my deep, deep and deep love!

I love you unconditionally, my life, my heart and my soul!

After you read this, there might be two choices for you. One, to throw this letter in the trash. Two, to give a thought about the emotions! One cannot force the choices. So I leave it to you, my life!

Yours Lovingly
From 'You!'

P.S: There is no mistake in the salutations, because I feel that this letter which I am writing to you is to me. Because, for me we are one soul!

Alankrita ends the letter carrying lot of emotions within her! She decorates the letter with nice girly designs and keeps on her table with an envelope to post it to Aryan.

Alankrita's supervisor calls her for an urgent meeting regarding the social service team. She leaves the room!

Aayushi observes Alankrita every night, as she sits in the dark with a table lamp and writes something! Aayushi was worried for about a fortnight to know, what was happening with Alankrita. She feared if Alankrita would take strange decisions of her life! The thunderstorm with heavy winds, which disturbed the weather in the city, were in parallel with the thunderstorms in the mind of Aayushi about her friend Alankrita.

As the wind blows from the window the papers written by Alankrita falls all over the ground. Aayushi gathers all the papers and as a matter of curiosity, she starts to read few lines. As the curiosity rises up in her, she reads the complete script and falls down in her bed!

Aayushi thinks in herself about Alankrita, "This girl is something special. She is very genuine and ethical with herself. But how can she understand that being ethical does not always work. We believe in the words, ' Dharmo Rakshathi Rakshitah!' ( which mean dharma protect those who upholds or protects dharma). Even if we are being in a manner of our 'dharm', we hope that the same 'dharm' returns us, but, the matter of fact is that, the 'dharm' required for the 'lok kalyan' (public welfare) is only served at last" 

Aayushi says to herself, "Hope and desire kills Intelligence!"

Interesting ?!!! Continue to Episode 3